另一个我

27 04 2009

不知何故有了想用中文的冲动,有错误请多多包含,多多指教。
总觉得用中文比较亲切,感触也多些。。

时间过得好快,转眼就要五月了。。回想起来,每年的四月都非常特别。。

从去年的四月到今年的四月所过的三百六十五天,发现自己懂事了不少。。也做错了不少。哈,生命就是如此,若没做错怎么知道哪些东西是不能做的呢?

妈妈常说:“你啊,永远长不大,整天只想着玩!” 也有人说好玩的人不会老,但愿如此吧。。

好玩,不一定是个人享受。
好玩,会伤到别人。
好玩,会伤到自己。

因为好玩,我现在很不开心。。

我伤害了她。

不该做的,我做了。。
不必说的,我也说了。。

一颗破碎的心冷却了,我有能力挽回吗?

每当看着全家福的照片都会看着她的脸而无端端地对自己微笑。真是个美丽的矛盾。。套句老话来说,人总是失去了才知道痛。。一点都没错!

我想对我部落格想着出轨的男读者们说,请三思啊。

二零零九也算过了差不多一半了,好玩的我也静了许多。似乎像个小孩知错了安静地坐在一旁。她,再过几天就飞往以色列。虽然只是个短暂的十天,心里仍有般舍不得。。来临的八月份或许是我将面对最艰难的考验。。

她,会飞去土耳其。。一飞就是半年。。难得终于能有时间在一起,过几个月就没了。无奈。

她说:”这也许是个好机会让我们反省这段感情。”

虽然害怕,我没有反对的权利。。只能默默地,由衷地祷告。。反省是应该的,但是我没有什么好考虑的。。这个“她”,世界上没几个了。。

好舍不得啊。。她知道吗?

半年吗?我等。还有下半辈子要过呢。

为什么我会选择把家丑外扬呢?因为这是我对她的承诺。。希望你们做见证人。。

曾经看过一句话,非常俗气但是能把心里地话说尽。如果“你“看得到。。我要对你说。。

”输了你,赢了世界又如何?“

好想你。





Blind

25 04 2009

Quick sharing in between my study sessions.

好想你。

I was young but I wasn’t naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we’d be here
Never thought we’d be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go





Best friend?

23 04 2009

Ha. :(