I couldn’t sleep, so i read every word that you’ve written again.

不知何故有了想用中文的冲动，有错误请多多包含，多多指教。
总觉得用中文比较亲切，感触也多些。。

时间过得好快，转眼就要五月了。。回想起来，每年的四月都非常特别。。

从去年的四月到今年的四月所过的三百六十五天，发现自己懂事了不少。。也做错了不少。哈，生命就是如此，若没做错怎么知道哪些东西是不能做的呢？

妈妈常说：“你啊，永远长不大，整天只想着玩！” 也有人说好玩的人不会老，但愿如此吧。。

好玩，不一定是个人享受。
好玩，会伤到别人。
好玩，会伤到自己。

因为好玩，我现在很不开心。。

我伤害了她。

不该做的，我做了。。
不必说的，我也说了。。

一颗破碎的心冷却了，我有能力挽回吗？

每当看着全家福的照片都会看着她的脸而无端端地对自己微笑。真是个美丽的矛盾。。套句老话来说，人总是失去了才知道痛。。一点都没错！

我想对我部落格想着出轨的男读者们说，请三思啊。

二零零九也算过了差不多一半了，好玩的我也静了许多。似乎像个小孩知错了安静地坐在一旁。她，再过几天就飞往以色列。虽然只是个短暂的十天，心里仍有般舍不得。。来临的八月份或许是我将面对最艰难的考验。。

她，会飞去土耳其。。一飞就是半年。。难得终于能有时间在一起，过几个月就没了。无奈。

她说：”这也许是个好机会让我们反省这段感情。”

虽然害怕，我没有反对的权利。。只能默默地，由衷地祷告。。反省是应该的，但是我没有什么好考虑的。。这个“她”，世界上没几个了。。

好舍不得啊。。她知道吗？

半年吗？我等。还有下半辈子要过呢。

为什么我会选择把家丑外扬呢？因为这是我对她的承诺。。希望你们做见证人。。

曾经看过一句话，非常俗气但是能把心里地话说尽。如果“你“看得到。。我要对你说。。

”输了你，赢了世界又如何？“

好想你。

Quick sharing in between my study sessions.

好想你。

I was young but I wasn’t naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn’t make you see it
Couldn’t make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you’ll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Ha.

I’ll try to do some stupid comics here, paying homage to the folks at EXPLOSM. Check them out at http://www.explosm.net!

p.s.: I promise to get the dimensions right for the next comic. Space constraint la.

Cheers.

It kinda hurts.

I’m learning to live without you now

But I miss you sometimes

The more I know, the less I understand

All the things I thought I knew, I’m learning again

I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter

But my will gets weak

And my thoughts seem to scatter

But I think it’s about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore..

Reminiscence of year 2004..

I just want to be inspiring. That’s going to be something for 2009.

Personally, Michael Jordan isn’t inspiring. Neither is Tiger Woods, not Roger Federer and not even Ghandi.

Honestly, i think Jeremy Yang is.

Surprise, surprise. But by no means i want to be Jeremy, i just want to be inspiring and that’s it. Sometimes you figured you just need someone/something to spark that minute and subtle flame in your head and bam! And many times Jeremy has been one.

Please pardon the pink-factor in this post but i’ve been thinking just how many times have i been influenced by this chap it’s amazing.

Instead of being all sorry and emo about being useless, i shall look at the cup half-full and look forward to what’s to come. It’s funny to have all these inspiring thoughts running through the head but that happens.

“A journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step.” -Lao Tzu

I’m no fan of Taoism and i don’t intend to start a religious debate here but it makes a lot of sense. Aye?

Have you stepped out of something today?

Yay, at least i’ve got something to look back to.

Syl was just commenting that my blog is dead; sure is! But i’ll still talk some cock here anyways.

So, looking back at 2008. What have i done?

1. Paintball
Well, let’s see, that was the first thing i picked up in January and i’m glad that i lasted so long for a new activity. (Tennis, got bored of it. Bowling, got bored of it) Even my family members were surprised.

Paintball, well, was supposed to be fun. Let’s just say i’m going to stop competing in any high-stress events and just play in skirmishes and be a referee instead! (Funny i lost the drive and passion for competitive games, but that’s another story for another time)

Referee Tom in 2009 we’ll see!

And come to think of it that’s the only massive event that happened in ‘08. Ha!

Maybe not, i completed my first official 10km run. Ok shut up, 10km is a lot for me. Thanks.

My first L-lens? 70-200 F4 L USM OK. Sold a kidney for that.

I love playing with angles.

BADASS, AYE?

At the early months of this year, Wicked lent me his GT Zaskar and it was a heap of.. pricy metal. But anyway moving forward, i’m in the process of transforming it, albeit i’ve procrastinated for MONTHS. But hey! A small step forward is better than.. nothing?

Lovely mess

Also, nearing the end of 2008, Jurong Point ’suddenly’ transformed itself into a metropolis; every freaking restaurant you can find in town is there. It’s amazing and i think Jurong’ers will never have to step out of Jurong anymore, well unless if you need books from Kinokuniya, leather goods from LV and Gucci, girls from Orchard Towers, whatever.

Ok i’m bored of blogging already and i shall end now. With this.

A camera filter for your handphone! Who would’ve thought of that! Pure genius. And there’s cross-filter and soft lens and macro lens. Not bad for a $6.90 gadget. Ha!

Stay alive on the last day of 2008 and have a good 2009 ahead, maggots.